i am in a very odd mood right now. i kind of want some milk. what is up with me wanting milk all the time all of a sudden?
the person i miss the most is a million miles away. i feel kind of empty.
we're going to the beach tomorrow. i feel like i should be more excited than i am.
i put new picture on my walls a couple of nights ago. i'm surrounded by pictures of the people i wish i could see in the flesh. all the pictures from march on are extremely bright and colorful. the ones from before are a little drab. it kind of reflects that whole semester, doesn't it?
i don't know even know why i'm the tiniest bit hurt about them planning out a DC trip without me. after all, i AM planning a DC/NY trip without them. (speaking of which, i can go now!) i shouldn't care. except i do. it's a bit of a conundrum.
sometimes these songs tug on my heartstrings until i feel the tears behind my eyes. for some reason, i can't cry.
sometimes i feel like i miss him so much it transcends emotion. it's like a grudging acceptance, a part of every day, just like getting up in the morning or going to work or putting on my shoes. i do it without thinking, and i take it the way it is.
but still: i need you so much closer.
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