the loudest thing in my head

sometimes songs will take me back to the smell of grass as it peeks out again for the first time after winter, or the pavement when it's warm on bare feet, or sipping beer in the backyard knowing it's a matter of hours until you're sunburnt. sometimes i go back to days where it gets dark at 10pm and fireflies come out in droves, sparkling for a split second before fading away. days where the only thing that mattered was getting to work on time and getting off work early. tank tops and shorts. sleeping in 'till forever. a tub of sherbet on the hottest day you could think of. tossing off the sheets at night because it's just too warm. hopping trains planes and cars. watching the sun set over chicago. bars and birthdays. the fog outside on the fourth of july. feeling like it'll never end. hoping it never really will.