come on get higher

that slow song just came on my itunes and reminded me of warm days with cool breezes in an indiana town three years ago. it's funny how feelings can catch up with you after all this time. if i close my eyes it's like i'm sitting in my room with the windows cracked open, pressing repeat over and over, smiling to myself for no reason. it always takes the dawn of spring to make me look back and realize how hard every winter really is. it always takes new leaves on trees to show me how lonely bare branches really look. i will always miss college but on days like these i miss it just a bit more, remembering and running across the quads on the last days of school and walks to starbucks for a passion tea lemonade and wearing shorts and flip flops to class and nights staying up late saying our goodbyes. it will always be beautiful, in that messy college kid way, and it will always be bittersweet.

but here, today, i can open my windows, i can throw some ice cubes into a glass and i can smile at jeff and remember that those days are the reasons that these days exist. they are different, and in some ways they are harder, but looking back, they will be beautiful too. these are the days we are building something and even though we don't really know what it is yet, one day we will remember who we were these days and thank god this existed.