and it goes on and on and on

it's so funny to think that i've only lived about a quarter of my life. i feel like i've already been through so much of it, but it's crazy and slightly overwhelming to think about, well, how much MORE there is. i guess when i was little everything seemed so far away in the future that i never really thought about it.

i'm slowly getting adjusted to "real world" life, figuring out exactly what it's like (as opposed to this idea i had in my mind) and being me, living in a city...well as much as i can from my cricket-infested bethesda basement. it's weird because at the same time, i felt so much more independent in london than i do now (and before you ask, invisible reader, no, it's not because of boyfriend issues or the lack thereof...) - i guess there i really had no limitations and a whole ton less responsibility than i do now. and i guess more responsibility should mean less limitations but let's be honest, my life in london was eating, sleeping, drinking, traveling, and squeezing class in between all of that. no worrying about rent, no worrying about a job, how i'm going to get home at night...it was very carefree. even though i was broke most of the time, even though i worried myself sick with boy issues, none of the memories i have of london are marred by any of that. all i remember are the wonderful, amazing times i had in those four months and the feelings of overwhelming happiness that i associate with that whole time. i have said this before and it was so true - i was waking up for the first time after a very long sleep.

i have always thought about london a lot, but recently it's been a lot more frequent. maybe it's because i'm riding public transportation every day again, maybe it's because one of the summer interns in the office is heading back to school in london as i write, maybe it's a thousand other reasons why. either way, i have an itch to go back that started the day i left and has been growing stronger ever since. i'll go back someday, i know, but i'm starting to get impatient waiting for that day to come.

and don't even get me started on ND. fingers crossed for tomorrow.