how much i can come and go

sometimes i miss the way things used to be, and the way it was before that, and even before that. it's so strange how so much can change from one year to another, one place to another, one person to another. thinking about now compared with two years ago compared with two years before that makes me realize that so much changed without anyone really noticing. it's not until you look back that you really see it, i guess. it's so strange how things only happen once and after it's over, all you have is memories that fade, and pictures if you're lucky. maybe i shouldn't be so bittersweet, because even though it's over, it still happened. and i still have the here and now, which is more that i could have ever asked for. it's getting colder but i am getting better. i am here and i am happy.